Bab 3.1.1: My First Love N HurT

Aku mengenalinya ('H') waktu Second Sem - Alpha, melalui internet. Rasanye tak perlulah letak name dia, takut dia malu pulak.Menjadi hobi baru ber'chatting' time free kat kampus. Di MMU kemudahan internet memang mudah dan cepat, seiring dengan namenya Multimedia University. Di sini, aku mula belajar selok belok internet dengan lebih mendalam.

Aku kenal ngan si 'H' inipon melalui IRC channel MMU or alpha, aku pon tak pasti/terlupa dah.(huhuhu..) Dia anak tunggal, tinggal di Johor. Aku kenal dia time second sem Alpha,baru kenal dia terus propose jadi awek even time tu aku rasa terlalu awal. How to describe him? He is tall, dark, and thin. He is caring because giving/buying me phone card just to call him every time i reach my home (no handphone during that time maa... n luckily in front of my house there is public phone). Sent me back to house sometimes with basikal but dia tak naik pon basikal tu, sorong je... nak bawak aku tak larat kot.. hahhaaha tapi time tu aku bukannya berat sangat about 46-48kg! What a nice memory to remind back even a bit funny.. At least to make me smile during my rainy day.

What I realize that we've lack of communication, this perhaps be the reason why we broke up. Percintaan yg tak lama tapi meninggalkan kesan yg mendalam, sebab I had change a lot after that. Mula2 memang susah nak terima bila org yg kita dah mula syg, yg dah mula bertapak kat hati kita tinggalkan kita dengan alasan 'you're such a good girl and I am not meant for u'. This the sentence I still remember till now, which he might be forgetten.

However, life must go on even its hurt so much sooner and later its will recovers back. What I've learnt from this, in relation must have a very good communication so that we can understand each other better.

Yakinlah, hari esok akan jadi lebih indah jika kita dapat terima semua keburukan dan kebaikan hari ini.

Dulu masa lepak2 ngan dia, selalu dengar lagu ni (dia ni dulu suka sgt kat group Nsync & Britney):-

"This I Promise You"

Ohh ohh...

When the visions around you,

Bring tears to your eyes

And all that surround you,

Are secrets and lies

I'll be your strength,

I'll give you hope,

Keeping your faith when it's gone

The one you should call,

Was standing here all along..

And I will take

You in my arms

And hold you right where you belong

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you This I promise you

I've loved you forever,

In lifetimes before

And I promise you never...

Will you hurt anymore

I give you my word

I give you my heart (give you my heart)

This is a battle we've won

And with this vow,

Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)

Each loving day (each loving day)

I know this feeling won't go away (no..)

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you..

This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)

When I hear you call

Without you in my life baby

I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)

You in my arms

And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes Each loving day (each loving day)

I know this feeling won't go away (no..)

Every word I say is true

This I promise you

Every word I say is true

This I promise youOoh,

I promise you...